Saturday, March 31st, 2007
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11:58 am - Yesterday
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Yesterday was really the best day of my life ever.
I had so much fun, but I wish I took more pictures seeing as I took none. :(
We looked cute together so thats all that matters I suppose.
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Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
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6:41 am - okay wayy
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too excited for prom!
Limo+friends+dinner+my date+me=lovely time.
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Sunday, February 4th, 2007
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10:18 am - maybe
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Maybe I never really got over him, maybe I tried and tried, but failed.
I've been thinking about it alot lately, and maybe this is like a second chance, and I won't blow it this time.
Maybe I should just get up the courage and let him know how I really feel, but then I get scared and think of all the consequences my action might cause.
Oh what to do :(
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Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
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6:51 am - I really need to learn
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Although I may not put up with my friends crap, I need to learn to stand up to father's side of the family who always use the guilt trip on me and basically make me cry any time I talk to them.
And I have come up with a word that basically fits everyone in the family. BONNET BITCHES. They all have a nerve to treat me the way they do. I've been thinking, maybe I'll just send them all a copy of my letter and show them how he has affectected me, and maybe they will stop taking sides.
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Saturday, January 13th, 2007
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6:07 pm - This week has been the crappiest week ever.
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There are soo many things to say and I'm not sure where exactly to start. I've been kind of thinking alot about how I kind of miss being Miguel's friend, like the way he used to be before he started treating everyone like crap as if they didn't matter or weren't good enough to be his friend. Kind of sad at the same time, because I am happier not being his friend at times, knowing that I don't have to put up with how he treats me and my friends when were aren't around.
This year was supposed to be the best year ever because it is my last one here in California, but so far it has just been a bunch of bull and complications and people back-stabbing each other and ending friendships. Which I have encountered at least a few of those.
So this week has been horrible, every day, another thing. Monday was alright, basically didn't study for any of my finals which isn't a good thing. And Tuesday we had to put down my dog Harley. I really did not think it'd be so hard, I kept thinking to myself he is just an animal I cannot be that attached to him. But after having him for 10 years and growing up with him, its quite different. You begin to consider your pets family, and he was just that. I miss him so much, more then I ever thought I would. Wednesday and Thursday were alright I suppose, ignoring my father's phone calls for what seems like the millionth time. Friday was interesting I suppose. The stupid ass bitch didn't go to the court hearing, which I was quite suprised at. My dad totally got slapped on the wrist again, and so did his lawyer because they are both idiots. My father now needs to be pay the 1,000$ month SUCKERRRR, sucks for him though. Good thing is, I do not have to go to midation or family counciling because I can only go if I want to visit with him, which will be never. I just need to get all my crap which is very minimal from his house. Sometimes I think about just leaving it all there and let him deal with it and not worry about anything because its not like any of it matters anyways, it might just remind me of all the pain and crap I had to put up with.
Next week better be a thousand times better.
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Sunday, December 17th, 2006
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11:26 am - She was caught singing in the kitchen
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My parents, yes I am calling my mom and Rick my parents now, have seen a huge change in the way I act lately. Ever since I wrote that letter to my dad I have felt like a weight being taken off my shoulders, and let me say it is the greatest feeling ever. I am pretty happy now then I have been in a long time.
My dad called me yesterday for the first time since he got the letter, and he asked me if I wanted to have lunch. I of course made up an excuse, I just can't talk to him or anything. Its pointless. And I am really happy that my mom put that she has sole custody of me, meaning I can only go see my dad if I WANT TO. Which is nice.
The court date is like the 15th of next month, I kinda want to go and like wear a disguise and see what happens, but I know I wont be able to probably :(
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Monday, November 27th, 2006
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8:53 pm - Today was pretty good
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I got to see the bestest person in the world LIZ!!
I lubbb herr.
And lunch was pretty much awkward with certain people but it was great seeing her!
And it really helped me alot seeing her.
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Saturday, November 25th, 2006
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10:34 am - Why do I even bother
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Why do I even bother having a stupid live journal or even write out all my "loser" feelings from my "loser" life that I have.
The people that even care don't have one.
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Friday, November 24th, 2006
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11:56 am - what a holiday
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and he stoops even lower then he was before
like he honestly thinks i didnt read what i wrote, and better yet copy and pasted and have what he said. if only i had a screenie picture of it. solid evidence is always better
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Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
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1:02 pm - Maybe Darcey is the one at fault
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So I just had a long conversation with Yarden about how I must be the reason why people are bitches to me right now and why I'm losing so many friends.
So here is what I came up with and told her. Apparently, I am taking it the wrong way.
The reason why me and my father dont have a good realationship anymore is because Darcey gave up. (Look it's my fault!)
The reason why Darcey and her dads wife dont get along must be my fault because i actually try being nice to her. invite her to places when its supposed to be daughter-father time, when she doesnt have anymore and when i snap at her and apoliguise i still get into trouble. (Look it's my fault again.)
The reason why Miguel and me aren't friends anymore is because Darcey yelled at him and then appoliguised but he continued to ignore her, so its Darceys fault why they arent friends.
The reason why Mandy and I aren't friends is because I was fed up with the way she was acting and said something to Kristine about it and she went around and told mandy. I am the reason, I guess if people are acting like a bitch you aren't supposed to say anything about it.
The reason why me and Paola aren't friends is because she is a hyprocrite and keeps telling everyone else my business. I guess I shouldn't try being the "leader" of the group because Paola is just trying to take my place in that and as one of Steph and Alie's best friends.
I guess the reason why me and Julia aren't as close anymore is because I have too much stuff going on in my life that I had to push people away and worry about the drama in my life. (Look again its my fault!)
As always its Darcey's fault because it can never be anyone else fault.
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Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
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6:48 am - what a bitch
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yupp he's officially a bitch.
fucckkkk him.
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Saturday, November 18th, 2006
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12:33 pm - darcey stressed out isnt good
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can i just move already so i just don't have to deal with anyone. where i can just go to a new school, have a new life, start fresh?
im just so confused lately. who my friends are, why do i even bother coming to my dads house i dont want to be here, why we cant just pack up and dont look back?
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Monday, November 6th, 2006
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7:23 pm - ♥
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I think I might really like him, unlike the ones before.
He understands me alot more, and I trust him more.
My friends seem to like him.
Which is always a trust.
current mood:  hopeful
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Saturday, November 4th, 2006
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10:04 pm - i love,,,,,
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my friends.
like seriously they totally understand me and are there for me when i rant or just being crazy.
and today was amazing and i had fun harrassing people online and playing with alies dog and eating and talking about gilmore girls during dinner.
today = awsomeness
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Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
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6:44 am - a new crush?
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I think so.
Maybe.
Hopefully this time, he wont be a jerk.
But I don't think he will....
=)
current mood: happy
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Thursday, October 26th, 2006
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6:56 am - You can't tell me he didn't deserve it.
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Monday, October 23rd, 2006
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8:57 pm - Shes still same old....
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bitchy.
today was her birthday.
can you say awkward.
i was planning on saying at least happy birthday.
but throughout the day i kept chickening out.
i mean why should i with the way shes been acting.
and dont get me wrong, i guess it was "bad" for me to tell another friend how i thought she was acting bitchy because she was completly ignoring everyone else but her. but hey i spoke the truth. and everyone knows it. im just the only one who doesnt put up with others bs.
I just dont know what to do anymore.
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Friday, October 20th, 2006
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1:54 pm - Came to a conclusion
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Life is very short, so why not live it the best you can.
I love how people always say "please answer this" or whatever, and when people do, they never both to reply, or when you feel strongly about something and try to help others, they don't want you help. I mean don't ask if you don't plan on accepting other peoples feelings.
And also, I am a very impatient person, its just me. I don't have time to wait around for him to change his mind or start feeling the same way. Instead of just dragging me along until he gets bored or something and getting my hopes up, with the continuous flirting that he does, why not just tell me he doesn't like me the same way. I'd be hurt, but I'd get over it.
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Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
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6:55 am - he will be getting it this week
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So sometime this week my father will be getting something in the mail asking him how much money he gets each month. It will be quite interesting to see his reaction. Even though he will be pissed as hell and will probably confront me and ask what it is about, or have another late night talk that turns us both into crying monsters while he says that our relationship has completly deteriated, but I wonder why. It's all her fault. Its not mine. What did I do? I am respectful to her, I dont bad mouth her to her face, I keep to myself big deal. I am done with everything. I am ready to move like next week, I just want to be done with him and his new life and the stupid dog. Nobody realizes, especially him how much he hurt me the past three years, the thought that came in my head that one time, the pain and agony-- i would rather have physical pain then emotional pain, to make the tears go away. I love my mom. She is my everything, she is the person I go to when I am done with him and his bitch ass wife that is a short bitch that is the rudest fcking person in the world. I hate her. When we leave I will be throwing confetti up! There will be tears of joy not sadness or pain.
Its sad, the only reason I go up there, is so I can play sims.
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Sunday, October 15th, 2006
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4:24 pm - serves him right
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i feel bad for him now, cuz she doesnt like him.
but at the same time im like booyah turned down.
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